♥ Cheryl

Gumdrops falling on my head.

2010-05-03T21:41:00.000+08:00

Going to webcam gummy later!

Then conference w Claire for another late night talk :)

Yay!

Nothing much to blog about today...

Just went a few places today. Bought some stuff, went to church, had nice lunch. Took IC photo. Thats about it. I WANT TO RETAKE!!!!! SOMEONE COME WITH ME AFTER SCHOOL TMR TO RETAKE!

Answer Key?

2010-05-01T23:29:00.001+08:00

If only life went the way we want it to. Its just so demoralising. When you try so hard, yet you just cant seem to get what you want.

Oh well. Whatever la. I'm just gonna think of happy things now :)

Today...was pretty boring day. I need to go shopping so badly. AHHHHH. GSS QUICKLY COME :)

Ok, i'm gonna set aside money every month to buy AT LEAST one thing :)

I need more $$$$. Gonna beg my mum to increase my allowance!

There's only one day of school next week! And the best thing is that, that day is the day we get released early from school :) Haha.

Have sec 3 camp on weds, thurs, friday. Not really looking forward to it. I want to sleep on my comfy bed than sleep on the hard wooden floor :(

I dont really have the mood to go out these days...

Just feel like coming home and lie around doing nothing. Waste of time, but at least i feel relaxed.

Dont stress dont stress dont stress.

2010-04-25T21:52:00.000+08:00

Woah, it has been how long since i last blogged? 37 days. Wow, one whole month.
Haha, school has been really really stressful. Struggling to catch up with whatever i missed out in term 1 and trying to do well in term 2 so that i wont get cut. Gosh, like its really damn difficult? Trying to not get caught for anything and to stay out of trouble w any of the teachers. So far so good. I guess.

Oh well, now, when i go church, its like a time for me to reflect and all, since what we are learning now is the different forms of prayer :) it fits into my life damn nicely now :) When things get outta hand, we know who to turn to for help.

OH OH! Finally, the day we have been waiting for.. HAHA AIR CON FOR OUR BLOODY STUFFY AND HOT CLASSROOM!!! Tomorrow tomorrow! Thats the only thing i am looking forward to. Mondays are horrible.. Back to back sciences, blech.

Anw, was having late night talk with claire last night, laughed our ass off. Hahahaha, made her throat even worse, OOPS. Haha! and finally, LIKE FINALLY went to ion for prawn noodles last friday w claire, kelly, liane and heidi. Played some stupid game which made us laughed till we were almost crying, haha! Fridays are our officially gng out to celebrate the fact that we survived yet another week of school! Haha! I love it, cause i never fail to laugh w them, all my worries and stress just fly under the carpet, even if its just for a few hours.

MARINA BARAGE

2010-03-19T21:31:00.000+08:00

SOS.

2010-03-17T11:54:00.000+08:00

I'm so angry.
I really cannot stand it. Why does she have to keep taking my phone away.
Why does she ALWAYS HAVE TO ONLY CARE ABOUT MY STUDIES AND NOTHING ELSE.

Why does she always say that i only think of play when i have been studying my shit ass off for the past few days. Going for tuition after tuition. Doing tuition homework before tuition, come back from tuition, have to do some more tuition homework that the teacher gave for that week. I tell her all these and she comes and say, you not happy then quit tuition la. I'm not OBLIGED to give it to you -.-

The thing is i'm telling her these to let her know that i never just play and dont study right. I never even stepped out of the hse this holiday to go out EXCEPT TO TUITION.

Why cant she see that i'm already trying.

Ranted on the phone with ______. Feel so much better now (:

You will always be my baby.

2010-03-16T10:01:00.001+08:00

Firstly,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KELLY <3 <3

She is finally 15!!

Haha, i texted her in the morning, but no reply. Such a pig. Haha, bet she is still sleeping!

Anw, these 15 years with you have been just so awesome!

I cant believe i have known you for such a long time!

SINCE PRESCHOOL!

We went to the same preschool, same kindergarden, same primary and now, same secondary (:

We were neighbours since young, we shifted house, and we are still neighbours now!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!!

Thanks for making me laugh so hard at your retardedness and funny loud laughter.

WOOHOO!!! PICNIC@ MARINA BARAGE TOGETHER ON FRIDAY W THE OTHERS!!

CANT WAIT!!

Every little thing you do.

2010-03-15T19:07:00.001+08:00

Did you really think what you did would benefit me?
Did you think how the other party would have felt?
Did you really know what kind of a person she actually was? Or did you judged her based on past incidents.
Did it ever occur to you that this was a one sided matter?

Did all these questions passed through your head before you sent the message out?
I doubt so.

I really dont understand why you have to control my entire life. First cheer, then dance then drama, all these were the stuff i loved to do, but you threatened to take it away from me -.-
Then it was my phone, then my studies, then now my friends?

You mean i dont even have the freedom of choice on who i want to be friends with? like wtf?

I can control my emotions in front of you, i can hide it and all, but really, inside, do you know how i really feel? I feel like my heart has been torn into a million pieces. This line is so cliche but so true.

I dont understand, how is it, nothing else seems to matter to you except my studies.

Little girl depends on things like that.

2010-03-06T21:51:00.004+08:00

Went for cip w vanessa, yong zhen and kimberly (Gng again tmr) :)
Was supposed to go @ 8. But ended up gng at 2. Haha, cause we went ion for starbucks in the morning then cine to watch Dear John. Like FINALLY!!! Waited so long, ok, quite long to watch it.

Heard that it was pretty good, someone even said that is was better than Avatar...Oh well. Idk, didnt even watch that. Haha. I cried 3-4 times during the movie. So sad! Haha, or maybe i'm just emotional.

Then went to eat popeyes and then cip. Spammed photos on yz cam (:
It was quite fun, like eating yami, ben&jerry, getting face painting, haha, but was tiring.

OMG VANESSA LOW SHI YA JUST TEXTED ME THAT SHE IS GNG TO DYE HER HAIR SOOOOON. ARGH! JEALOUS JEALOUS!!!!

Anw, holidays are finally coming!! Going bangkok this coming saturday! SHOPPING!!!!!!!!

I CAN LIVE WITHOUT BOOKS?

2010-03-01T17:22:00.001+08:00

I CAN.

I want my life without books. Its wrecking my brain.

I hardly have any time to go onto the computer and blog.

All my time, energy, is all spent on those BOOKS.

So many tests this week :/

1 down, 4 more to go.

I CAN DO THIS.

SHALL NOT FAIL ANYMORE!

I JUST NEED THE ENERGY TO STAY AWAKE IN CLASSES.

Everyday, Lord, I'll
Learn to stand upon Your word
And I pray that I
I might come to know You more
That You would guide me in every single step I take, that
Everyday I can
Be Your light unto the world

Whenever something happens,

whenever you feel like the whole world is crashing down on you,

 when you think that your life is falling apart.

That is when you actually realise His presence.

During this lent, i shall make it a point to make sure i pray every night, and stay close to You, Lord.

Blow the candles out, looks like a solo tonight.

2010-02-20T16:49:00.003+08:00

Cip ytd was pretty fun ;)
Earned $2 from playing cards (haha) and they gave us $5 for gng to do cip. Haha cool right ;)
What we did:
Went up and down buses, walking here and there, quarreling w stupid impatient bus uncles, sitting down slacking, smsing using each other phones.

Was super shacked, reached home around 1.

Sometimes, i really do think that i'm getting involved in too many things :(
I feel so drained out at the end of the week. I have no time to do anything anymore. My life seems to revolve around work, and more work. Its never ending. And then the tests come in, cca, drama. Argh, i really feel like giving up. I just hope that my parents will be able to understand and not start being particular about small stuff again, but it all seems to be coming back. They are starting it again. Scolded me like crazy in the morning for ______ again.

I hate it when they place such high expectations on me and then get dissappointed and I get so stressed up and exhausted. It sucks. It really does.

Raindrops falling on the rooftop

2010-02-17T21:01:00.000+08:00

So exhausted today :(

Went out for lunch w mummy and kelly.

Met vanessa there ;) Hahaha. I'm still so tired after sleeping for hours..

Have to study for stupid physics test :(

I really dont want to take it :(

I know i'll fail.

I hate this feeling.

I swear.

Last day.

2010-02-16T13:15:00.001+08:00

Oh man...time really flies when you are having fun :( it's Tuesday alr. School starts tmr.
Idw to go to school so badly :( waking up super early, falling asleep in lessons, don't know what the teacher is talking about, scoldings from teachers, more homework and more tests. $#<%*@

Physics test on Thursday, I think I'm really going to flunk this test. I really dk what the teacher is talking abt. Will you believe it, i'm not even sure of the bloody topics tested.

Oh well, on the lighter note, I still have 11 more hours before it's weds! Going to visit more houses and then going to watch Percy Jackson w my brother and valentines day w cousins :) and dinner at my cousin house. Yipeeeeeee! I'm gonna play hard, very hard for the next few hours :D

GOOD STUFF.

2010-02-14T18:22:00.001+08:00

(Skip to 1.34)

(this is damn cute!)

I SERIOUSLY CANNOT STOP WATCHING THESE VIDEOS!!!!

Bitch.

2010-02-14T17:31:00.001+08:00

Just finished visiting!
Collected $$$, gonna get more tonight!! 2 reunion dinners :D
Haha, anyway, I AM SO &%^$#@ pissed ok! Some asshole who is younger than me come scold me on fb. WTF RIGHT?!
She said :
hey bitch.
you and Kelly tan should rly get a life, before you talk behind people’s back, and pretend that they don’t know.
cos they’re not fucking stupid, and they can read.
your junior joined dance because the stupid system and choosed it for her.
It was never her first choice anyw. i thought maybe, well, the genius could deduce that.
but no! Your junior hates dance, WHAT TO DO ??? ): ):
maybe you do the peace sign and kissy lips and post on fb ?
awww.cos your so dumb , that you have to set your status about it! wow! how complicated.
Also you’re a bitch. wait, i said that already? sorry, have to repeat stuff for the slow one, eh? if you actually managed to read all this, that is. you did? yay! kudos to cheryln koh/bitch.
as for Kelly tan, i don’t know what she has a bug in her butt about. like anyone actually gives a flying pig about what she and her ugly spectacles think.

I AM FREAKING PISSED I TELL YOU. CAN SHE GO GET A LIFE? SERIOUSLY I DONT EVEN BLOODY KNOW HER AND I DIDNT KNOW SHE EXISTED.

2010-02-10T07:19:00.000+08:00

I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!! I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!! I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!! I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!! I hate him!!! Bastard!!!!!!!!

Busy. Busy.

2010-02-03T22:35:00.001+08:00

Drama rehearsal at art house today.
Met olivia at yck mrt then took to raffles and drank coffee before gng to the arts house. Supposed to meet different people at different stops but it kinda failed. Either we forgot to tell them we got onto the train or we just couldnt find them cause it was so crowded.

It was pretty fun :) Laughed until started tearing. We had so much free time la. Rehearse what shit. Cause they were setting the lighting and music.

So we ended up playing retarded games in the dressing room. Like this game called, HUH, WHAT, WHY? hahahah it was freaking funny.

Some people pissed the shit out of me la. Shant say who.

Then we went for lunch at some MIND CAFE. Haha, so hard to find good food at that area. The stupid cafe menu made the food look so damn good. But ended up it was all shit. Like the pasta seemed uncook and had a weird smell. And they took so long to serve us. Grr.

When everything was done, went over to raffles city for dinner with some of the drama people. Wasn't really in the mood to talk.

And, then most of them left. Left with gwen olivia and myself.

Walked around and got some nice stuff to write cards for valentine day :D :D

Bitched alot :) Bitching helps to kill time man. Seriously. Tested and proven. Haha ;)

The real performance tmr (: Hope everything runs smoothly. And i dont screw up :/

Never be alone.

2010-02-02T20:57:00.002+08:00

You're never gonna be alone from this moment on

If you ever feel like letting go, I won't let you fall

When all hope is gone, I know that you can carry on

We're gonna see the world out, I'll hold you 'til the hurt is gone

I'm gonna be there always

I won't be missing a word all day

I'm gonna be there always

I won't be missing a word all day

You'll never be alone baby. <3

You had a bad day, take it one down.

2010-02-02T00:38:00.000+08:00

Went to j8 w Vanessa and rest for a while before going home. Camslutszxsz in the cab. Haha, I was so tired when I reached home I just plopped myself on the bed and slept. All the way to 7 plus. Then went for tuition :)

Omg, this reminds me. I was so f annoyed la!!! Like first I forgot to hand up the stupid drama essay I stayed up till 1.30 to do. Already minus one mark cause it was due last week! And then during Chinese test idk how. But I missed out 2 questions!!!! When we had to hand it up then I found out. And I was like...shit....

Argh. Bad day.

Life's hard.

2010-02-01T00:06:00.002+08:00

My blog is like kind of dead now. So busy w everything. No time to even go onto the computer! the last few posts were like posted from my iPhone.

There are like a total of 4 tests this week :( Chinese, chemistry, lit, and ting xie. Haha but the best part is I'm going to miss 3 out of 4 of the tests :) have drama night :) weds rehearsals, no need go sch. Thursday, performance. No need go school. Friday time off school, cause we will be ending quite late :) can sleep in. Only need to reach school at 10.15. Shiok rIght? Hahaha, jealous not?

And today was..wow. Quite a day.
Vanessa was crying like shitzzzzxxxx cause sth happened again. And In the afternoon I couldn't rly do much as I was really really busy w church tuition then meetig w class ppl at j8. Sigh. Just hope that it will work out this time round.
Sometimes I really really really wished, why can't life be like how we were when we were younger? Stress free. Boys free. Well, we are all growing up. It's part and parcel of life i guess. Life just have to be so difficult. Grr. After reading Vanessa blog ifelt so much like crying. ESP at the father and mother part. It just seems so true...

Anw, I'll try. Try to really pay attention in class and not doze off or get distracted. I never really pay attention in class nowadays. It sucks knowing that what you are doing is wrong yet you just can't bring yourself to change.

2010-01-28T08:28:00.000+08:00

Blogging in class now!
Haha teacher is boring shitzzxz man. sigh.

Claire just turned 15! Went to swensens fo birthday lunch the day before. Laughed like craaazzzyyy! Hahahah, so long since we last did that tgt man.

Liane taught me the new dance!!! Super nice!!! omg. I love it like hell!
I rly dk what to do. Because of drama I can't go for dance on Tuesday. And I mean EVERY Tuesday :( I'll miss ALOT. Should i drop??? Gah...

Blah blah blah.

2010-01-23T08:30:00.001+08:00

Parents went to bintan for company trip. Hehe, it only means one thing :) I'm freeeee! Haha this entire week has been so crazy. From school work to tuitions to changing to the modern group for jubilate to having an impromptu drama practical that I was totally not aware of.

Ahh it is only the 3rd week of the school and I am already struggling like mad and breaking down. I hate sec 3. Alot. Thank god there is the bible sharing every thursday. We can share abt everything and anything.

Anw, went for lunch w Angelica and stayed to talk. It has been so long since we last did that. :)Vanessa came over before tuition to play. Gng over to her house later to play. And hopefully not watch any horror movies :/ haha.

2010-01-22T19:16:00.001+08:00

Hi vanessa is awesome

Krazy.

2010-01-13T17:44:00.000+08:00

Omg finally i'm on the computer again.
Sec 3 is crazy, Seriously. The workload is crazy.
I missed out on one week cause of orientation and it was damn hard trying to catch up. Broke down a few times, cause like it was only the first week of school and it was alr so hard to catch up. Ahh, but now better :)

Went macs in the afternoon, finished school homework and revised through physics, omg i laughed my shit off making shortforms of the terms. MET SD (mass, energy, temperature, speed, distance ) I made it to met single & desperate. Hahahahah, idk why i laughed so much. Hahahaha. Shall post more later. Chinese tuition :/

ADORABLE.

2010-01-01T17:41:00.000+08:00

Alvin and the chipmunks are SO CUTE!!!!!! OMG!!!!! i felt so much like running to the screen to pinch theodore's cheeks!!!! Hahaha, but it was so cold, my teeth were literally chattering in the cinema man!
I want to watch again! Who want?

1 more day.

2009-12-31T12:59:00.002+08:00

Its the 31st alr. 1 more day.

I wonder how next year will turn out. For the good? Or for the worst.

Whatever it is, im just gna study hard, pray hard, and play hard.

Ps:/ Got my iphone alr :D

Bastards of the century.

2009-12-30T12:16:00.001+08:00

Met vanessa for lunch with janielle yesterday. Talked and laughed and bitched. Was f. pissed off w him. Such a bastard. Hopefully he learnt his lesson, if he hurts her again, im gna shoot him dead.

Then went back to sch for dance. Was rly dead tired. Plus, i had fever. So after doing the spilts and warm ups, went to the side and slept. Damn shiok. Who knew the floor in the hall was nice to sleep on. Haha!

Finally the last day of the workshop.

But not able to go for peiwei sweet 16 cause of the workshop. Sigh.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!

If i walk, would you run?
If i stop, would you come?
If i say you're the one, would you believe me?
If i ask you to stay, would you show me the way?
Tell me what to say so you don't leave me.
The world is catching up to you
While you're running away to chase your dream
It's time for us to make a move cause we are asking one another to change
And maybe i'm not ready

Try.

2009-12-28T14:33:00.000+08:00

Saw this on my cousin's blog. Nice...<3

2009-12-28T14:18:00.000+08:00

HOW THE HELL DO PEOPLE EAT CHEESE FRIES!?
For some reason, when i eat, my mouth, my shirt and everything around gets dirty!!!!
Can someone teach me how to eat? Hahahaha.

Went for the workshop, super happy. It ended like 2 hrs earlier!!!!!

Got miscommunication with vanessalowshiya. supposed to meet her for lunch. But in the end, she thought that i was meeting her today and i thought i was meeting her tmr! Hahaha, how awesome is that?

Anw, 3 more days and its HELLO 2010 and goodbye 2009!!!
Sigh, this year passed rly fast ): gna miss it alot man. All the fun times and hard times i had.
Dance, syf, drama '09, cheer, outings, quarrels, tears, sweat, joy. AHHHHH...

Take a breath, take it deep
Calm yourself, he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take a gun, and count to three
I’m sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go

Above all.

2009-12-27T19:05:00.000+08:00

Woke up in the morning, cleared all my sec 2 notes, then went for church, met cousins there. Didnt know they were coming over. Haha, then went out for lunch. Good food. Then went to singtel to see the student plan thing for iphone. I decided to get iphone :D Haha, but in the end no stock. Bloody hell right. Damn unlucky. And i stepped on a freaking thumbtack.

OH OH and met isabelle in church. So long never see her alr. AND SHE HAD TICKETS TO SINGAPORE IDOL GRAND FINALS. AHHH, but in the end backed out. Didnt know her friends. Haha.

Planning to go for lunch with vanessa and all before lunch on tues. The next 2 days is gna be super busyyyyyyy. Got the stupid workshop FOR 4.5 HOURS!!!!! Then come home rest a while, then go tuition!! then stay back for some stuff with janielle and the rest. I think bible sharing or sth. Haha.

I CANT WAIT FOR NEW YEAR EVE :D

Its the season to be jolly.

2009-12-26T16:58:00.002+08:00

Christmas party yesterday with cousins, super funny.

Xiuhan and i were like playing with the curling iron angelica's mummy bought for me :D

Made me look like some ugly freak. Wait, uglier freak. Stupid hair. i went to cut it. So bloody disgusting :( i want it to grow LONGER. like much much longer. Thank god im refraining from the F word. All this whole blog post will be full of it. Was super pissed with my mum. LIKE SUPER DUPER. At the shop i was alr on the verge of crying la. Then cut finish alr, cannot take it cried in the toilet and in the car park. Sigh.

Anw, back to the party. I love my cousins man. I always feel SO happy around them. No matter how the day was earlier on, being with them always takes my mind off all those unhappy things. Oh and i love all my christmas presentssss!!!!!! HAHAHA.

Oh, and i wont rly be replying msgs for a while. My mum took my phone AGAIN. Long story. Sigh.

AND, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RENXIN!!!!!!!!!!!

1,2,1,2,3, TURN THE LIGHTS ON!

2009-12-24T11:04:00.002+08:00

ITS CHRISTMAS EVE ITS CHRISTMAS EVE!!!
TMR'S CHRISTMAS!! YAY! I CANT WAIT!!!!!
Anw, went out with claire, vanessa, her cousin and ignatius on tuesday. Went to ion, fep, paragon, and cine to watch princess and the frog. Who the heck told me that it was a nice show ah! It was quite boring. Except that, claire and i were like screaming cause of the scary cartoons, Haha, hate it when there are bad people in a movie. Its so scary. Quite funny :D then there was this little boy who suddenly went to the big space in the front of the cinema and started crawling about and barking!! It was damn hilarious. More interesting than the movie la. But actually, some parts of the movie was nice some parts who boring. Haha, i like the ending. HAPPY ENDING !! Haha. And i got molested in the movie by claire yang shu rui that nehneh. And vanessa's legs and claire's legs were always on me during the movie ok. Sit in the middle of them ah, can die one.

Yesterday went to sch to perform the family dance for the new sec 1s, then went to my grp. BE PSL SO FUN OK! hahaha, im in the sleeping commitee. Funny name hor. SLEEPING COMMITEE MEMBER. Hahaha, for lunch, janielle and michaela were like gng crazy singing christmas songs la. Got video in my phone ;) Anw, back to sleeping comm, we have to like wake up every 2 hours to do our shifts during camp man. I think it'll be damn fun, but the next day, have cca fair, have to dance. I'll be damn shacked man....

Gucci, Fendi, Prada purses, purchasing them finer things
Men they come a dime a dozen, just give me them diamond rings
I`m into a lot of bling, Cadallic, Chanel and Coach
Fellas boast but they can`t really handle my female approach
Buying things is hard to say
Rocking Christian Audigier, Manolo, Polo, taking photos in my Cartier
So we can`t go all the way, I know you might hate it but
I`m a shop for labels while them ladies lay and wait for love

Swarmed.

2009-12-15T11:01:00.001+08:00

GOSH blue hse " i wanna be famous, i wanna be a star, i wanna be in movies, da da da da da" keeps playing in my head!!!

Hahaha, after like 20 days, i still cant stop watching the cheer videos. OMG I WANT CHEER TO QUICKLY START AGAIN!!!! Was watching different sch cheer/dance videos with shuxiang just now! Haha, we still feel that sn cheer is still the best <3

Anw, tuitions are rly killing me. A maths, E maths, english, science, chinese.. Thank god science and chinese have not started, but still, im like swarmed with piles and piles of homework. Idc, on christmas week im gna play like crazy, sch start then start studying. And im getting rly lazy to blog these days..

Get on with it.

2009-12-12T15:51:00.000+08:00

Omg, i went to the new sch today, it was freaking small compared to the old location :( Im gna miss the old sch so badly....but then over there everything looks pretty new so it aint as bad i imagined it would be. Someone told me that ALL the toilets only had squats, but no what. got toilet bowls too! ok shall stop posting on toilet bowls.

Then went to return cheer costume to ms lim since i was alr there. IM GNA JOIN NXT YEAR IDC!!!!!!! Haha, whether or not they allow me to. Cause i love it so much. They always told me not to do things that I'll regret, so thats what im gna do.

Then went to buy new uniform and books. OMG the physics and chem textbooks are !@#$% thick. Like one module is like the same as our maths textbook? Ok maybe A LITTLE BIT slimmer, but only a little...Ahh, alr dont feel like picking the book up alr man...but i still will. I guess. Sec 3 is imprt year as everyone around me has been stressing...hahaha, what the heck am i talking abt.

Anw, go to this website to check out the nails man... SUPER SUPER LONG. But its nice :D

http://nailgurukaikai.blogspot.com/

Tick Tock.

2009-12-10T11:13:00.000+08:00

OOO, so long never blog alr!
Anw, went to vanessa's hse with iguana then went over to j8 to meet the others yesterday. Was supposed to watch Christmas Carols at cineleisure but in the end we went there but didnt watch. Ended up gng to ion and far east instead. Camwhored and walked around quite a bit and cracking each other up.

Whee, then went back home talked to claire and shuxiang on the phone till like 5 am. Woah, talked to claire for 9 hours straight O.O Shuxiang freaking scared the hell out of me when she told me sth!!! You know how freaked out i was!!!!! My heart like rly dropped la. Oh well, i know she just cares. Like a mummy man.
Damn tired now. Feel like sleeping.

YAY TMR GNG OUT WITH MY BBY AND. WE GNA CAMWHORE LIKE SHIT KAY. HAHAHA.

Taiwannnn.

2009-11-30T14:06:00.002+08:00

I'm going taiwan tmr!!! BACK ON THE 7 DEC! With presents ;)

Its over.

2009-11-25T21:31:00.003+08:00

Cheer is finally over. When i said that i cant wait for it to be over, i didnt really mean it. Although it was painful, tiring, people pissing me off, I dont want it to be over at all. I feel so lost. I feel so empty. When i wake up tomorrow, i would sit up and think, at this time, i would be in school, dancing my ass off. Tired but having fun.
I'm going to miss everybody, i'm going to miss peiwei's funny pronunciation, jasmine's krazy dances, liane's bimboness, kay min's funny smile and gigantic house, and valerie's funny expressions. I'll miss it so so bad.
I wish i wasn't this emotional and sentimental.

Its just like SYF, its all coming back to me again.

I dont care, we're going to go for outings together and have alot of fun.

Everything will be just fine, just fine.

2009-11-18T14:33:00.000+08:00

Cheer was damn tiring. Omg.
Did the formations for combined. Drill my set and krazy. WOOO...
But, quite annoying. Cause the others never come for practises -.- and then we have to reteach and drill them. ARGH!

Anw, life is really so boring now. Nothing to do at all. And she's making me crazy. I thought things would change after camp. But, i guess, not.

She says she's disappointed cause i havent change but did she? No. Wtf right.

Before the storm.

2009-11-17T12:02:00.002+08:00

I know this isn't what I wanted,
I never thought it’d come this far,
Just thinking back to where we started,
And how we lost all that we are.

We were young and times were easy.
But I could see it's not the same.
I'm standing here but you don't see me,
I'd give it all for that to change.
And I don't want to lose her,
Don't wanna let her go

Standin' out in the rain,
Need to know if it's over,
'Cuz I would leave you alone.

I'm flooded with all this pain,
Knowing that I'll never hold her

Like I did
Before the storm
With every strike of lightning,
Comes a memory that lasts.

And not a word is left unspoken,
As the thunder starts to crash.....

For some reason when i heard this song, it made me rmb of someone.

Anw, i just realised, my ipod is full of songs that are very dance-like. All thanks to cheer -.-
Haha, got dance today. So tired of it. Super boring. Why does it feel so different from last time? Sigh, this sucks. Shan Xiang is getting so so boring. Seriously. And Claire isnt coming ): which makes it even more boring cause she's my crap partner. GRRRRR.

And, im trying to make stupid lazy yijing upload the long-overdue pictures in her camera. YAY !!! Like finally.

Who said change was good?

2009-11-16T14:05:00.002+08:00

Just came back from cheer. So dead. Super tired. Sigh, yellow changed the set that they contributed. So we have to learn a new one and dump the old one. Then now blue is doing the same thing ): Argh, sports day is next week alr!!!!!

There will be cheer everyday till sports day! Finished one pom pom alr, still have to make the other one. Who knew it took so long to make one!!

And, the results for subject combination is out alr (: Got my first choice. C2. Hopefully it is the right choice :/ Im scared of physics. But idw to study so much for bio. Besides both my physics and bio is bad. So no diff!

Truly, madly, deeply.

2009-11-15T00:21:00.000+08:00

Yay, im finally back!
Yknow, sometimes i wish i could feel the same way about going on a holiday as i would when i was much younger. I remember, the day before every holiday i go whether Australia, Japan, Bintan OR Malaysia, i would not be able to sleep! But now, it just feels so different. I dont really feel the enthusiasm and excitement about going on a holiday anymore :( and it kinda sucks.

Anw, trip to malaysia with angelica was fun. Weather was so nice in Cameron Highland. Cold..
Everything was good. The bus, the hotel room, the bed, the food, the shopping and rides. Haha, will upload pictures when i have time. Super shacked from the long bus ride. Watched hannah montana and some kungfu basketball show. Helped to distract me from the bumpy ride and how i felt like puking.

Want to post more, but im super tired. Shall post more abt the trip tmr.

MLIA <3

2009-11-10T13:12:00.000+08:00

Today, while taking a walk outside, I passed a girl who looked about 11. She was singing "santa clause is coming to town" but with some of the words changed. I didn't realise what she was singing until I heard "he sees you when you're sleeping. you knows when you're awake. his name is edward cullen so be ready to get raped." you have restored my faith in today's youth, little girl. MLIA

Today, I woke up and realised I could see my clock. I have needed glasses for the past 5 years. It took me 5 minutes of celebrating about the miraculous return of my eyesight to realise I had slept with my contact lenses in. MLIA.

Today I cut my leg on a chair at school and got blood on my pants. At least six of my friends came up to me and told me seriously that I had gotten my period, and one gave me a tampon. I'm a 15 year old guy... who goes to an all guys school... who is still wondering where Bobby got that tampon. MLIA.

Today, my friend was talking about a calculator he wanted. He couldn't think of the word "calculator", though, so he said, "I want one of those black things that does stuff for me." Almost immediately, a shy kid in the back says, "What? A slave?" I still haven't calmed down. MLIA

Today, I was at a theatre meeting in my school's auditorium. I came across a couple of guys I didnt know and proceeded to greet them by their names. Freaked out, they then made me say the name of every person that walked by. They still havent realized that we are all wearing nametags. MLIA

Last night my boyfriend took me on a date. We look very similar (blond hair, blue eyes, fair skin), so the waitress started hitting on my boyfriend and asked me if it was ok for her to give my "older brother" her number. He then said, "whatever my lil'sis thinks...she tends to be a good judge of character" before leaning over to kiss me. The look on her face was epic. MLIA.

So many things to do, so little time.

2009-11-10T09:27:00.000+08:00

Sigh, stop thinking about camp, stop thinking about camp. Can someone come and distract me? Divert my attention?

Going for dance today since its at 3.30 to 6.30. Then rush home change go for divine mercy and then to malaysia. Im going to buy so many things. I dont care.

I dont want to leave singapore man. So many things to do. Cheer, dance, friends. AHHHHH!!! i hate it when camps make me feel like that. It always happens. After camp, i'll surely miss it like crazy and keep thinking about it. ARGH.

VANESSA COME WEBCAM ME NOW IM VERY BORED :(

Camp

2009-11-09T20:39:00.001+08:00

I miss camp so much, post camp blues man. Dont feel like doing anything at all. I love this song, they played it at camp.

Falling for you.

2009-11-09T15:01:00.001+08:00

Back from camp! It was really really good, even though _____ was pissing the hell out of me. Seriously, ___ was acting smart thinking he's oh-so-great... I HATE this type of people to the max. Ashley made this stupid code when we were super piss with him WTF. So whenever ashley or isabelle or i was pissed, we say WEDNESDAY THURSDAY FRIDAY. If not it will be FRIDAY FRIDAY FRIDAY! hahahhaa! then act cute is AIRCON-MOMENT. Hahaha, there was alot of crying, and alot of sharing. Made us write letters to our parents. It was really awesome. Going to miss this camp so much. AND THE PEOPLE !!!! I feel so much closer to all of them now :D PRAISE AND WORSHIP WAS AWESOMELY FUN AWESOME AWESOME AWESOME! Now, thinking if i should go for youth camp in dec...

Leaving for malaysia tmr night! Should I go for dance tmr if there is? I dont feel like going...

P/s Super super tired..like a zombie.

Say goodbye.

2009-11-06T20:18:00.001+08:00

I wont be blogging till next week cause i've got camp and gng malaysia! Kinda sad ): i dont rly want to go anymore ): isabel wont be going...nehneh la she.

Sigh, she cancelled out on us again -.-
So instead of having practise, claire liane, hong yee and i stayed back to chit chat and talk crap. hahaha, super funny. Ate 4 slices. Cant believe it. Was super super super hungry. Haha, now stomach bloated. Haha, i think tmr no need eat anything alr.
P/s : Grandfather is in the hospital again. I hope everything will be ok ):

Roly Poly.

2009-11-06T08:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday dance was quite funny cause i could not balance properly and kept wobbling about. Even when i was kneeling i could fall. When i suppose to 'fan' i hit my friend's head. TWICE. Haha, whats happening to me man...

Went over to vanessa's hse first. She paid for my cab fee. I love you nehneh <3
Haha, and she has a freaking dog which is freaking scary...And ignatius had to go open the door and let the dog come in. GOSH $#@*^&! yong zhen and i scream like mad dogs while the dog jumped and ran beneath us and valerie was desperately trying to catch it.
It was fun on the whole (:

Have cheer later at 2.30 till 8. My last cheer prac till i go for camp and malaysia ): This is like the first time i dont want to leave singapore. But I'll have fun..i think.
Louisa's coming to help for cheer like finally. She couldnt make it for the previous one at the last minute. Yay! Hopefully we can get some sets done during indiv. Haha.

Couldnt sleep till about 1 even though i went to back like really tired at 11. Then i woke up at 4 and couldnt get back to sleep. I think I'm going to just die later.

If you have made mistakes, there is always another chance for you. You may have a fresh start any moment you choose, for this thing we call "failure" is not the falling down but the staying down.

Psychic.

2009-11-05T12:22:00.002+08:00

Saw this on vanessa chan's blog. Haha, my psychic friend. Super funny.

Today, in Science class my teacher asked us what we thought of when we heard the word "evolution". I thought of Pokemon, but I didn't say anything. MLIA.

Tonight, I was listening to the radio on my way home. “Heartless” by Kanye West came on, a few seconds into the song, the DJ stopped it and said “just kidding!” and proceeded to play “You Belong with Me” by Taylor Swift. This made my whole day. MLIA

Today, the whole world came crashing down on me, so I got some tape and stuck the map back onto the wall. MLIA

Today, I wanted to comment on a friend's status, but it was only a few seconds old and I didn't want to seem like a stalker. I waited a few minutes and then commented. MLIA

Today, I renamed my iPod "This ship" just for the pleasure of seeing the phrase "This ship is syncing" MLIA

Today I was eating a cupcake when the phone rang. I panicked and stuffed the entire cupcake into my mouth. I still don't know why I did that. MLIA

Today, I was sitting in my room and heard a little boy outside sneeze. I said bless you, and five seconds later, I heard a very hesitant...."God??." MLIA

Today, I got farther with a girl than I ever have before. We ran 10 miles. MLIA.

Today I saw a crunchy looking leaf in the street. I went substantially out of my way in order to step on it. MLIA.

Today I found my ipod, put my earbuds in, and sat down to do my homework. Two hours later, I finished and took my earbuds out. I then realized I had never turned my ipod on. MLIA

Today, on MSN my boyfriend said to me 'You're such an angle', meaning angel. He didn't understand why I replied 'Aww, you're so acute.MLIA

Today while working on a french essay I realized that despite being a 19-year-old university student who has been reading quite competently for many years, I still sing the alphabet every time I need to look up a word in the dictionary. MLIA

Today, my 14 year old brother asked me if I would give him a bottle of vodka for his sleepover. I did. When I came home the bottle was empty and they were all extremely drunk. I still haven't decided whether or not I should tell him it was soda water. MLIA

Today, I began writing a paper that is due tomorrow morning. Instead of writing today's date in the header, I wrote the date it was three days ago to make it seem like I didn't start this last minute. MLIA.

Today, I saw that my ironing board cover was wrinkled. I laughed at the irony. Then I laughed again because irony has the word iron in it. MLIA

Today for homework we had to combine two animals and descibe our creation. I combined a bee and a ostrich. I named it a beeotch. MLIA.

Today I was watching Aladdin on Disney and realized that when he and Jasmine fly across the world, they pass a background from Hercules and Mulan. My world just exploded. MLIA.

Today, my know-it-all university professor said, "Was is always a verb". I then raised my hand and said, "It's a noun in that sentence...". Never before have I felt so cool. MLIA

THIS DANCE IS %*#$%! good!!

Out with the old, in with the new.

2009-11-05T08:39:00.005+08:00

Just woke up, its like quite a standard thing now. Wake up at 8.30 then straight away come to the computer until time to go for dance or cheer. Sigh, its getting boring ):

Sigh, quite tired of cancelling stuff cause new stuff pops out. Like suppose to go vanessa's hse today, but my mother arranged A maths tuition. Like friday i'm suppose to go orchid country with claire liane and the rest, but then all of a sudden we have cheer on friday which starts at 2.30 or 3.30 ( cant rmb) to 8!!!! Like wtf! i'll just die la. Next day got camp somemore ):

And shanxiang is becoming super boring. All the excitement of learning a new dance has slowly faded. We learnt finish the dance alr. But why does it seem so different from
when we learnt finish shi mian mai fu? I miss that group of people..Why do i have to be this sentimental. It really sucks.

Anw, i love this song now!!

You can't play on broken strings
You can't feel anything that your heart don't want to feel
I can't tell you something that ain't real
Oh the truth hurts
And lies worse
How can I give anymore
When I love you a little less than before

Oh what are we doing
We are turning into dust
Playing house in the ruins of us

Running back through the fire
When there's nothing left to say
It's like chasing the very last train when it's too late (too late)

Oh your supposed to care,
But all you do is take,
Yeah, all you do is take.

Colours of the wind.

2009-11-04T21:39:00.004+08:00

Cheer was tiring...omg.
Had to do the lifting so many times..
And learnt new sets today. Tmr surely muscle ache one.
OMG! i just realised! Sarah yang never come for cheer! omg! hahahaha!
Aiyo.

Anw, was webcamming claire just now. hahahaha, super funny! all the sound effects, pranked call liane and kelly using the guys voice effect. Hahahaha, liane one was hilarious. Kelly one was scary...Hahahaha.

haha, then painted nails. She paint hers pink then changed to blue i paint mine purple. Nice nice! Match my leotard tmr! :D

Pepper and salt

2009-11-04T12:22:00.005+08:00

YAY CHEER LATER :D We should be teaching red hse's set.
Anyway, vanessa and the rest came over, cause they pon maths and they cant stay in school. Yongzhen damn nice, spam my photobooth. Watch videos cause it was quite boring.
Sigh, starting A maths tuition tmr ): Sucks ttm.
KNNCJB! hahahah! Confirmed going orchid country club with liane claire and kelly :D Who else want to come? AND today is the last day to submit subject combi. Ahh, have this scared feeling. Chose C2, C1b and then A1. Cant do C3 or C4 (pure geog/pure c.lit) SIAO can...

PS: Haha, ming wei bringing cupcakes later :D YAY YAY.

Once upon a time... from Capucha on Vimeo.

She is so cute!!! i want a french baby!

Scared scared scared!

2009-11-03T22:21:00.002+08:00

THAM YONG ZHEN SCARED THE FREAKING DAYLIGHTS OUT OF ME OK!
STUPID LINK! OMG!

Dance was fun...laughed like crazy with claire and kelly! Hahaha, Super spastic. Who knew kelly had the sluttiness inside of her. hahahaha!
Zhuang treated us to drinks for helping her :D

OK OMFG, my mother want me to start A MATHS tuition this week. HELLO! THE HOLS JUST STARTED YESTERDAY!?

Space is the place.

2009-11-03T11:14:00.004+08:00

I LOVE VANESSA <3
cause she help me change my blogskin. Haha.

Have dance today. Dance people going out for lunch but my mother dont allow. Argh. &%$#@(! i hate it when people use the word unrepentant. I hate it so so much. Why is it when people try to change but yet they dont see it and start using that word.

Anw, lets talk about happy things, there's cheer tmr. Combined cheer. From 2.30 to 6.30. FUN FUN FUN!

Wish the sec 4s can quickly come back cause everything is in a mess ):

POO! i made a video for you. Go search your name on youtube!

AND I LOVE VANESSA! AHAHHAHA! Webcam her for 2 days straight. Why? haha, cause her baby at camp. Annoying right. Haha.

Battlefield?

2009-11-02T10:04:00.002+08:00

Went jogging and swimming at OCC yesterday. Jogged in the gym for like 30 mins and cycled on the cycling thing for 20 mins, can die..srsly. Then went swimming. After that, went to shower and get change. The toilet and the changing room damn nice. ANYBODY WANT TO GO WITH ME ANOTHER TIME!? Haha, food there was good too!

Have tution later, then suppose to have cheer later. But ___got problem. Damn %$@?@$ pissed.

____ just smsed me what happened. Whats with guys doing stuff to hurt girls? Seriously. We are the weaker sex here. HELLO?!
Sigh.

Don't try to explain your mind
I know what's happening here
One minute, it's love
And, suddenly, it's like a battlefield

One word turns into war
Why is it the smallest things that tear us down
My world's nothing when you're gone
I'm out here without a shield - can't go back, now

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing, oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
Why we gotta fall for it, now...

I never meant to start a war
You know, I never wanna hurt you
Don't even know what we're fighting for
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like a battlefield, a battlefield, a battlefield
Why does love always feel like

Can't swallow our pride
Neither of us wanna raise that flag, mmm
If we can't surrender
Then, we're both gonna lose what we have, oh, no

Both hands tied behind my back for nothing (nothing), oh, no
These times when we climb so fast to fall, again
I don't wanna fall for it, now...

Its time to go, its time to let go.

2009-10-31T10:57:00.002+08:00

The busy busy week has finally come to an end. School has closed. Im really going to miss 2 justice ALOT. Where else can i find such a great and awesome class! IM GNG TO MISS LYDIA MANY MANY!!!!! Almost cried on friday. ALMOST. Haha, really. Everybody has been so nice, despite my impatience at times. Sigh :( Wonder which class I'll be in next year...

SUBJECT COMBINATION

That is what EVERYBODY is talking about now. Which science to take? Which humans to take? Sigh, i rly dont know if i want to take bio or physics ): AHHHH...i dont want to make the wrong choice. And i do regret that i didnt rly bother about my studies until like the start of term 4. Should have started earlier :/
And i really want to take drama, but im afraid that i would not be able to cope. But i really love drama ALOT. And i dont think i want to just give it up like that. Sigh, why must everything be so confusing and complicated.

Chionging aunty raq homework now :/ dont think i can finish it by 12.

Cheer was...haha, hmm. Had to go pack the dance room and ate into my cheer prac time :/ seriously i dont know what wrong with ____. She's forever scolding me and asking me stuff! Go ask someone else la! like the president of the vice? Urgh.

KRAZY.

2009-10-28T20:53:00.003+08:00

Argh, this week is like crazy week!
Had cheer on monday, totally sucks up energy, mentally and physically! Then dance on tuesday, muscle aching like crazy. Today had drama prac. GOSHHHH..super dead. Then tmr WHOLE DAY drama cause there's a performance! Friday got cheer again. Louisa coming to help :D we need help man. SERIOUSLY. SOS...

And that stupid kid say what copy her blogskin. Seriously immature, and bo liao.
Her friends suck too, calling vanessa they all ugly. IDIOTSS...

C: Aww. feeling sad? go cry to your mummy kiddo.
28 Oct 09, 20:18
C: who cannot make it? let me tell you in case that peanut brain of yours cant register, let me tell you ok. THE UGLY ONE IS YOU.
28 Oct 09, 20:16
C: Who the hell are you to say we act like freaking baby. you're no better ok. You think they're jealous? seriously. you ought to go look in the mirror and compare it with them, who is the one
28 Oct 09, 20:14
C: can you not. who are you to call ppl ugly and comment about their features. Really, if ppl called you a copycat called your sch a slut sch, and so many other things, wouldnt you get angry?

Did cinderella have fun?

2009-10-24T21:13:00.002+08:00

Had chuch cleaning in CTK today.
Haha, super funny and fun. Who knew sweeping and mopping could be fun eh :D
Played games and had a briefing for camp.

Then went over to Amk Hub with angelica and isabelle. They needed to get some stuff walked around and tried some stuff. Super funny. Haha.

Its all coming back again.

2009-10-19T21:34:00.003+08:00

Spent the day at ion and taka. Was feeling tired, so didnt get much stuff.

Was suppose to webcam this goondoo who just wont tell me what scandal she did. But her skype had some problem.

Anyway,
Going to be quite busy this week. with drama rehearsals for the showcase, cheer starting and cca resuming. hahaha, its gna be one fun week though.

That's for sure

2009-10-16T16:49:00.002+08:00

Summer love.

2009-10-16T15:49:00.003+08:00

Weds

Met Angelica to go to j8 to buy some stuff from cotton on and ate lunch then made our way to sentosa. WE FORGOT WHICH STOP TO STOP AT! We actuallly thought marina bay! We totally forgot abt Harbour Front on the freaking purple line that was not on the freaking board! Then took back to Dhoby Ghort! THEN WE TOOK THE WRONG TRAIN AGAIN AND WENT BACK BUT ALIGHTED AT RAFFLES THIS TIME! WTF! Then finally went the right way. Haha.
Went to sentosa siloso beach to meet up with the rest to make up for angie's birthday party! haha!
Had an awesome time there. Had to drag people into the sea cause they were reluctant to. GRRR
Took many pics did so many retarded things, Like singing Hokey Pokey. Pictures on facebook :D
Went back to vivo shopped at forever 21 and then went for dinner. Legs were killing me and was damn dizzy.
Went back to j8 and shopped somemore. Angie seriously has an obsession man...Sigh.

Thursday

Reflection day was definitely not how i imagined it would be. The stories were rly good. I love Father Simon :D
He's really a great priest! His stories kinda freaked me out too. Then we started praying and appreciating and reflecting.
The last prayer was rly...WOAH. Cried non-stop cause of everything that happened this entire year.

Friday
Games Carnival. Played soccor. Rly fun! Didnt know soccor was so fun! But rly exhausting. Haha, esp the stupid weather. Either rain if not damn hot...
Gng night safari with angelica later, cant wait :D haha.

3 more to go.

2009-10-11T15:07:00.003+08:00

Yay, cant wait for eoy to end. Left with 3 more papers, lit, chinese and drama!
History and geog was ok, science and maths were HARDDDD! haha, oh well.

Gng sentosa with angelica and the rest after drama theory on weds! haha, can finally celebrate her birthday, then gng picnic at marina barage and night safari on saturday! omg, eoy hurry finishhhh!!!!!

Found out that im gng for a short trip to malaysia with angelica. KL and cameron highlands. From 7-9 got church camp, 10-12 malaysia! YAY YAY YAY!

Its ok its alright, im so much better without you, i wont be sorry.

1,2,3,4.

2009-10-09T02:44:00.003+08:00

Omg, science is like seriously killing my brain cells. Up to now, i havent even started bio and its like close to 3 am alr. Im gna be damn exhausted tmr.

BUT THANK GOD Shuxiang helped me with ENTIRE chem part. Like if she never help me, i dont even think all these mugging will help me pass the stupid science test. YAY YAY! THANKS SO MUCH POOPOO! LOVE YOU <3

Ok, gna memorise till i fall asleep.

Baby are you down down down down down

EOY

2009-10-05T15:07:00.000+08:00

CHERYL, GET OFF THE DAMN COMPUTER NOWWWWWW!!!!!

Blood is thicker than water.

2009-10-05T15:01:00.003+08:00

I never ever fail to have fun when im with my cousins.
They are the ones who accept you for you are no matter who you are.
I love them so so much (:
Anw, had fun with cousins on saturday at nicks hse.
Gma's birthday!
Went down to play with the fire crackers thing. Took pictures with xiuhan too! haha, funnyyyyy!
Then they were using to kerosene to do some cool thing! hahaha.

i look so good without you.

2009-10-05T14:33:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wQMWU66pKjE&feature=related
I LOVE THIS SONG MAN! <3

mhh yeahh

boy i would have thought that,
when you left me i'd be broken,
with my confidence gone,
so gone.
hey boy i would have thought that
when you said that you don't want me
i'd feel ugly and sense something was wrong

standin' in front of the mirror
my skins never been clearer
my smiles never been whiter

(chorus:)
I look so good without you
Got me a new hair due
Lookin' fresh and brand new
since you said that we were through
done with your lies
baby now my tears dry
you can see my brown eyes
ever since you said goodbye

i look so good
i look so good without you
i look so good
i look so good without you

hey i never would have thought that
when you left me
i'd feel sexy and so good in my skin again
and i never would have known that
i'd be dreaming so much better
without you in my head

standin' in front of the mirror
my clothes never fit better
my laughs never been louder

(repeat chorus)

i look so good
i look so good without you
i look so good i look so good without you

now baby my body's lookin' better than before
ain't biting my nails since you walked out of that door
i realize now i deserve so much more
than what you give
than what you give
than what you give ohhhh

2009-09-27T02:04:00.001+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=dhrY-oIqF18

Drama Drama Drama.

2009-09-24T19:35:00.005+08:00

And i dont want the world to see me, cause i dont think that they'd understand.
When everything is made to be broken, i just want them to know who i am.

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PRAY THAT I WONT FORGET MY LINE TMR!!!

But sir, its impossible as i have been trying to tell you, see for yourself sir, rows upon rows upon rows of graves, as far as your eyes can see, do you see any one of them sitting on two plots? Sir, you must understand, there's no room for exception!

I KEEP FORGETTING THE LINES! AHHHH!!!

Been practising drama like crazy for stupid eoy. Hope we do our best tmr and NOT forget any lines.

You could look good on me.

2009-09-23T17:41:00.004+08:00

Everythings perfect
When you're looking through the glass
The colours can fade as seasons pass
This time I wanna, wanna nail them to the mast

Fit me tight but let me breathe
Let me wear your heart on my sleeve
Be the thread that winds the seams
You could look so good on me
Fit me like a second skin
My favourite jeans that I could live in
Wouldn't need accessories
You would look so good on me

And, hope that rachel's knee will recover or our drama prac this friday is freaking freaking screwed ):
Went for drama performance at ACJC, quite ok. Suppose to be a comedy, but so so only. Wasnt really laughing, was sneezing like crazy -.-

Laugh like you mean it.

2009-09-20T18:48:00.002+08:00

It seemed like ages since i smiled and laughed like i really meant it.
I love my cousins and family.
Was celebrating grandfather's birthday at nicholas house yesterday.
Avoiding the stupid but cute dog was tiring.
Tried to use the dumbbell, super funny. hahaha!
haha, went to vanessa's room and realised that she had a bloody macbook! and she is like 10 years old for goodness sake!!
So unfair.
Then xiuhan and I photobooth and did alot of stupid stuff. Really funny. I never laughed so hard before.
I guess it really was a good break from everything yesterday.
Love them all alot <3

Life's a climb, but the view is good.

2009-09-19T14:41:00.004+08:00

These few days were kinda horrible. Felt like everything was crashing on me. My parents my brother my friends. It really sucked. Esp when it was so near my birthday. If only i can turn back the clock. Cant really control my emotions nowadays.

Just finish drama prac. went over to macs with rachel and yijing. Talked to me and i just broke down in front of them. Couldnt stop crying.

):

2009-09-18T23:28:00.000+08:00

Its my birthday ...

doesnt even feel like.

Dont quit.

2009-09-15T16:54:00.003+08:00

When things go wrong as they sometimes will;

When the road you're trudging seems all uphill;

When the funds are low, and the debts are high

And you want to smile, but have to sigh;

When care is pressing you down a bit-

Rest if you must, but do not quit.

Success is failure turned inside out;

The silver tint of the clouds of doubt;

And you can never tell how close you are

It may be near when it seems so far;

So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit-

It's when things go wrong that you must not quit.

Let's get it started.

2009-09-11T19:34:00.002+08:00

LETS GET THE PARTY STARTED ON A SATURDAY NIGHT!

Pumpin up the volume,
breaking down to the beat
cruisine through the west side
I'll be checkin' the scene
Boulevard is freaking as I'm coming fast
I'll be burning rubber,
you'll be kissin my ass
Pull up to the bumper get out of the car
License plate says
Number One Superstar

Indescribable, uncontainable.

2009-08-10T22:49:00.007+08:00

outside waiting for them to open the door after basketball.

No one opened the door and daryl kept
"HelloHello, open the door leh"
"Got people anot, open leh"
The gate was locked but the inner wooden one wasn't, so he kept pushing the door and scream. In the end his leg got caught in between the doors.

Xiuhan laugh like shit.

how to shoot ah? ahaha.

the little boy damn cute!!

" wei shen me ta na bian you ge dong de" ( he was talking abt the dog xiuhan holding)
Cous 21st party, was awesome. Damn fun :D haha. Love my cous alot, esp xiuhan, crazy monkey.

Just saw the farewell dance video. Felt so sad.....and started tearing.

Oh well..i think i will just cry buckets when they leave the school for good :(

monday:

Mum told me abt the talk she went to at church.

Damn gross. Dont know why ppl want to do these type of things.

Haha, went to kinokuniya and bought some stationary :D

then went to orchid country club for lunch and met Father Stephen.

CHANGING ROOM DAMN BIG OMG!

Dance was freaking tiring. Came home and body was damn exhausted.

Muscles damn pain today.

Tmr still have to go training...urgh.

Dance is no longer fun ): so different without the sec 4s and shi mian mai fu.

its like separated into sec 1. sec 2. sec 3. not as a dance group.

Seriously, school is damn tiring. Fell asleep and knocked my head on the table and then woke up cause got a shock. haha, couldnt stop laughing.

Mohana told me to meet her after sch cause she wanted to have a chat with me.

Ahh, talked abt studies and priorities and stuff. Sigh :/ eoy coming ): so screwed.

Feel like i cant disappoint her, and parents and everybody.

Fang wei was damn sweet. She wrote like 4 pages long of notes to encourage me and give me pointers and everything. I was damn touched, haha.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINYI JIE JIE! <3

A dream.

2009-07-22T22:16:00.002+08:00

So many people upset ):

I wish everyone can just be happy and lead a normal and happy life, instead of having one problem after another problem occuring!

And, get well soon Claire!! <3

2009-07-19T22:29:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MING WEI ALOT!

dont wry (: everything will be fine!

Lords prayer.

2009-07-19T16:59:00.001+08:00

Really adorable!!

Haha.

IKEA!

2009-07-07T11:24:00.002+08:00

Went ikea with angelica and our families.

Had so much FUN!

Ate dinner there too, awesome food! But for some reason got stomach ache after that :/

Everybody joking and laughing so hard. I LOVE MY GODFAMILY! hahahha (:

went to walk around after that. Lucien apparently loved the ikea pencils and took 32 of them!

Damn funny! Kept joking abt those pencils. Took many pics too! Walked almost all the sections. Then went out to get ice cream! Angelica's ice cream got stolen....by Lucien. haha (:

Felt sick during first period. Both angelica and I. May have eaten the wrong things. I think it is the food and the sweets we bought at ikea. Felt so nauseous. Going to see doc later.

I never knew, never realised.

2009-07-02T23:49:00.003+08:00

I never realised i took so many things for granted.

My friends, god, parents, everything.

I never did until today...

Mugged for tmr chem test.

Crazy shit. did not know a single thing! except stupid protons and electrons and neutrons -.-

Called Angelica, she taught me over the phone. but kinda difficult.

So she came over to help me (: AT 9 PLUS! till now.

I LOVE HER!

We talked abt stuff too.

She told me how everybody is very worried for me, especially her.

I did not even know ):

Realised so many things. Was on the verge of crying.

I really didnt realise i had so many friends who are so cared for me so much, i really didnt.

I'll learn how to cherish them from now on.

Shall rest early so wont be too tired tmr.

the real me.

2009-07-01T16:01:00.003+08:00

Foolish heart looks like we're here again
Same old game of plastic smile
Don't let anybody in
Hiding my heartache, will this glass house break
How much will they take before I'm empty
Do I let it show, does anybody know?

[Chorus:]
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

Painted on, life is behind a mask
Self-inflicted circus clown
I'm tired of the song and dance
Living a charade, always on parade
What a mess I've made of my existence
But you love me even now
And still I see somehow
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me
You're turning the tattered fabric of my life into
A perfect tapestry
I just wanna be me
But you see the real me
Hiding in my skin, broken from within
Unveil me completely
I'm loosening my grasp
There's no need to mask my frailty
Cause you see the real me

And you love me just as I am
Wonderful, beautiful is what you see
When you look at me

Job 28:22-24 : God understands the way to it and he alone knows where it dwells.

I know i havent been talking to You for a really long time, and i'm gna do something about it.

I miss you, jesus.

2009-06-05T15:02:00.009+08:00

MATHS KILLS BRAIN CELLS!

JUBILATE VI

2009-05-23T09:21:00.002+08:00

JUBILATE WAS SUCH A SUCCESS! I am so happy! not just because we danced our best and really wow-ed the audience but also because, yesterday was the last time the sec 4s will be performing for jubilate, and we did it so well!

Gahh, feel so sad, thinking that this is our last time dancing tgt for jubilate...

Haha, shit, dont know why i'm wheezing now. stupid throat.

Anw, gng for the dance performance at Hwa Chong later. Wonder how it will be like....